Tuesday, 21 April 2009

• What Does God Say of the Loneliness?

  Is lack of Christian friends be at blame of becoming backsliding? I know one of the problems of struggling Christianity is lack of Church life. I noticed MY lack of motivation into coming here often enough to write and read.

  God have given me gift of writing and the love of sharing. But my love for writing has changed. It has changed since the betrayal I have caused to others. Slowly I have dropped out of writing often.

  It was not caused by busyness in my life, though now I am a mother of another child, a five weeks old son. He was a surprise blessing send by God that we never thought would have happened in our lives.

  I have slowly accepted there was a possiblity of never having another baby in my life. When God chose to bless me, I felt that His timing sucked. Because we have recently moved to Arkansas as to where I knew of nobody.

  Everything was new and usually I don't adjust too well of changes. Now that has been overcome with barely enough strength and patience, I am still alive and kicking a year later.

  Though there has been so many days when I have wanted to give up and run away. Abandon this blessing God have given me and disappear. My misery was horrible that it nearly destoried my family.

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